Its a time proven proverb of the elder times and with numerous occurences to prove the authenticity of the same. The same happened to my puny existence shaking it to the tip and being true to the T.
25 Dec, 2004, a truth well-hidden within the constraints of my heart was eventually glimpsed at by the eyes of scrupolous elements. This followed with sentimental torture, mental pressure, persistent abjuration. Tears dripped like rain drops, the outside pain was coherent with the unconscious struggle for retainment. Life seemed to be begging to borrow the pleasures from death. Words were rare, looks were glares, smiles were mere flicker of disgust or maybe just disapproval. The scene was of high intense, with communal engagements and comments being common, taunts deliberately aimed to maim me mentally. It was a hard time with reel-like mural. Clouded by the mist's of others concerns, the vows of humanity welfare being pelted at me, finally, the heart came out victorious with maybe many casualties, but who cares about such things in love and war.
The similar thing happened on 25 dec, 2006 with the other counterpart. The same truth got revealed in the same way as before in all the basic criteria being the same. I stand on the shore but i can feel the storm here and tears comes to my eyes thinking of the endurable my part undergoes. A similar situation has prevailed and it causing the similar panorama. The history has repeated. But i hope it completes with a slightly different flavour. Every ounce of me hangs in balance in this.
Let the heart be victorious in the true sense this time and let it prove its power to all. Let it be something i would cherish and be grateful all my for to Him.
Let the river stop now and be a peaceful ocean.
Wednesday, December 27, 2006
Thursday, December 21, 2006
Immensely Enjoyable
Its a cool atmo here. and the problems are increasing day by day. Everyone is getting frustrated and ditching the last efforts. Its a real mess. Im out of it, so am enjoying while i can.
i dont have much to write. Just thought to punch in some chars.
i dont have much to write. Just thought to punch in some chars.
Tuesday, December 19, 2006
The Frenzy
People are gonna move around now. Who will be where, its not certain. The enthusiasm has cooled off and the concentration is more on the frenzy. I am worried about the future of the endeavour undertaken. That's something very special to me.
I want to make it work. Lets see what it brings about in a couple of weeks. I suppose, it might require some indepth thoughts to it.
But one thing is certain, i am gonna be here, no matter what.
I am gonna make it thru without scratches :D
I want to make it work. Lets see what it brings about in a couple of weeks. I suppose, it might require some indepth thoughts to it.
But one thing is certain, i am gonna be here, no matter what.
I am gonna make it thru without scratches :D
Tuesday, December 12, 2006
Its about time
Yes, its time .. Relaxation and merriment is over now. It should start now.
A good job is required now for some stability and longevity.
There is no point of being moving from the focus, else the bombay was only good enough. But, be focussed.
This post is intended for my use :D
A good job is required now for some stability and longevity.
There is no point of being moving from the focus, else the bombay was only good enough. But, be focussed.
This post is intended for my use :D
Friday, December 8, 2006
The leap has been taken
It has finally been taken. That is what i sometimes love about myself, other than that, i am not always that happy with what i do. I needed a push, i got it today and took my leap. Lets see what the future holds but yet, confidence is what i have learned in my 4 years and that will see me through :D.
I like it. The feeling is unique. In fact, i enjoy it. A burden seems removed. Though, i know this kind of things are not feasible to my responsibilities.
But still what's wrong in experiencing it for sometime. I can worry later and surely, will :(.
I am only human :D
I like it. The feeling is unique. In fact, i enjoy it. A burden seems removed. Though, i know this kind of things are not feasible to my responsibilities.
But still what's wrong in experiencing it for sometime. I can worry later and surely, will :(.
I am only human :D
Tuesday, December 5, 2006
What are Beneficial Decisions?
Decisions are of 2 types: beneficial and normal ones.
They have two consequences: benefit and loss.
They are implemented in 2 ways: forced and conscious.
They provide 2 results: satisfaction and frustration.
Benefits are of 2 types: monetary and psychological.
Loss are of 2 types: monetary and psychological.
Though, all these also involve physical aspect, but that is undermined in presence of psychological aspect.
Monetary benefits are always short-lived, though being a very big driving factor and dominating most of the decisions.
Mostly, decisions are always in favour of benefits.
A forced decision leads to frustration while a conscious one leads to pure satisfaction.
Mostly, there are circumstances associated with forced decisions which lead to the conversion of forced decisions into conscious decisions. But the heart knows the difference and it won't leave you alone on this, though your mind will accept it.
Mostly, the circumstances which are considered in undergoing forced decisions are very abstract and hypothetical. There real-time occurence probability is very low, though it is anticipated to be very high. This mostly leads to a forced decision being taken which is later regretted or takes a sobbing corner in the heart's dark bracket.
Examples of such decisions are 2 guys:
One doesn't take up a high paying job in another city due to reasons related to heart, while another takes up a trip to USA under pressure of circumstances which are over-estimated. One is currently, quiet happy with the decision taken, while the other is on the verge of changing platforms on a day-to-day basis.
One is enjoying and satisfied with the days as they are passing, while the other is under constant frustration about what to do and what not and thinking of alternatives to fulfill a decision he desires.
Time surely will tell, what would be achieved by such endeavours.
One should be a little selfish in life to be happy:D, otherwise, it just becomes a prolonged period of endurance without happiness and lots of regrets in life.
If you have a single regret in life which you could have avoided, it should be avoided as it makes life a lot more merrier. :D This is a proven thing. Ask the gurus of such fundaes.
They have two consequences: benefit and loss.
They are implemented in 2 ways: forced and conscious.
They provide 2 results: satisfaction and frustration.
Benefits are of 2 types: monetary and psychological.
Loss are of 2 types: monetary and psychological.
Though, all these also involve physical aspect, but that is undermined in presence of psychological aspect.
Monetary benefits are always short-lived, though being a very big driving factor and dominating most of the decisions.
Mostly, decisions are always in favour of benefits.
A forced decision leads to frustration while a conscious one leads to pure satisfaction.
Mostly, there are circumstances associated with forced decisions which lead to the conversion of forced decisions into conscious decisions. But the heart knows the difference and it won't leave you alone on this, though your mind will accept it.
Mostly, the circumstances which are considered in undergoing forced decisions are very abstract and hypothetical. There real-time occurence probability is very low, though it is anticipated to be very high. This mostly leads to a forced decision being taken which is later regretted or takes a sobbing corner in the heart's dark bracket.
Examples of such decisions are 2 guys:
One doesn't take up a high paying job in another city due to reasons related to heart, while another takes up a trip to USA under pressure of circumstances which are over-estimated. One is currently, quiet happy with the decision taken, while the other is on the verge of changing platforms on a day-to-day basis.
One is enjoying and satisfied with the days as they are passing, while the other is under constant frustration about what to do and what not and thinking of alternatives to fulfill a decision he desires.
Time surely will tell, what would be achieved by such endeavours.
One should be a little selfish in life to be happy:D, otherwise, it just becomes a prolonged period of endurance without happiness and lots of regrets in life.
If you have a single regret in life which you could have avoided, it should be avoided as it makes life a lot more merrier. :D This is a proven thing. Ask the gurus of such fundaes.
The ticker
This blog is dedicated to our ticker for N603, rail vihar.
We all need something to tick in life, other wise we just stop clicking. Some have the tick in games, some in work, some in shopping etc.
We have a live ticker in between us. In his terms, sab uski lete rahte hain :D
He is our personal ticker. He lets us vent off on him, gives us the sense of being a manager, have the satisfaction of assigning work to someone and then, scold him for work not done properly, for obtaining desirable essentials such as food, tea, mosquito repellant, for perfecting our humourous faculties, for the gratification of our virtual sense of superiority :D..etc..
He fulfills some of our most innate desires in a friendly fashion.
He is very sweet and the reason for us to tick though undergoing such stressful habits.
We cant do without him. An inseparable part of the whole body.
He is something we cherish a lot and love to kick his ass :D
We all need something to tick in life, other wise we just stop clicking. Some have the tick in games, some in work, some in shopping etc.
We have a live ticker in between us. In his terms, sab uski lete rahte hain :D
He is our personal ticker. He lets us vent off on him, gives us the sense of being a manager, have the satisfaction of assigning work to someone and then, scold him for work not done properly, for obtaining desirable essentials such as food, tea, mosquito repellant, for perfecting our humourous faculties, for the gratification of our virtual sense of superiority :D..etc..
He fulfills some of our most innate desires in a friendly fashion.
He is very sweet and the reason for us to tick though undergoing such stressful habits.
We cant do without him. An inseparable part of the whole body.
He is something we cherish a lot and love to kick his ass :D
Saturday, December 2, 2006
Mann Bawra (Heart not understanding :D)
What does it think, i myself dont understand. Early morning, i put the alarm for 8:30 for going to gurgaon, got up and then, decided not to go and slept. Suddenly, woke up at 9:15 and started to freshen up.
Then again thought, i havent shaved, wont go and came to sleep. Yet, again thought, lets shave and then sleep (trying to hide myself from the thought that am i going or not). Shaved and then came to bed to sleep.
Again, got ready instead and started looking for keys. Couldnt find the keys and so, thought good riddance. Found the key :(. Thought, i dont know anything about j2me, so y go and so stopped, but then i remembered the things i knew and i came here:(
Totally disappointing place. A box, kothi main office. infinite interviews. They gasped at my expected and gave me an online test which was a serious rape :(
Now i want to get back, but yet i am sitting on a system and writing a blog :D
Something decent kind of company is not so totally out of the picture ehh??
Then again thought, i havent shaved, wont go and came to sleep. Yet, again thought, lets shave and then sleep (trying to hide myself from the thought that am i going or not). Shaved and then came to bed to sleep.
Again, got ready instead and started looking for keys. Couldnt find the keys and so, thought good riddance. Found the key :(. Thought, i dont know anything about j2me, so y go and so stopped, but then i remembered the things i knew and i came here:(
Totally disappointing place. A box, kothi main office. infinite interviews. They gasped at my expected and gave me an online test which was a serious rape :(
Now i want to get back, but yet i am sitting on a system and writing a blog :D
Something decent kind of company is not so totally out of the picture ehh??
Friday, December 1, 2006
Will this ever end ??
You need to really look hard before your first leap. It really pains. It is becomes a regret for your life.
Though it is the most spirited and you learn the maximum from that.
You pray for it to end, though it doesnt end. But its end is another beginning.
I dont know wat im writing :), really out of my mind .. had a very bad day.
No food, no time, just struggle. That cant be life. Has to be something else. Will it always be work? It has been such a long time.
A passion can drive a man to hell and still enjoy it as if in heaven.
Though it is the most spirited and you learn the maximum from that.
You pray for it to end, though it doesnt end. But its end is another beginning.
I dont know wat im writing :), really out of my mind .. had a very bad day.
No food, no time, just struggle. That cant be life. Has to be something else. Will it always be work? It has been such a long time.
A passion can drive a man to hell and still enjoy it as if in heaven.
The Morning Frenzy
Its a wonderful sight, the chilling air, the lazy ambience and silence. Complete bliss. I enjoy this with no words to express the same, moving around the scenic beauty of natural aesthetics.
And then, it rings 9:15 am, and "utho saalon, office chalo". Bathroom flushes, chappals frenzy, dumbells bangs (thanks to a single contributor worried about his abs), mists feeling from the smoke of cigarrettes being lighted, but still amidst all this, the serene of the morning in a bed with covers from head to toe.
Its a torture to undergo such a episode on a daily basis though we endure it. With sleep in eyes, we try to get the day over. I will continue later, have to run to the office...warna "half day ki talwar to hamesha hai", though now it doesnt bother us much.
And then, it rings 9:15 am, and "utho saalon, office chalo". Bathroom flushes, chappals frenzy, dumbells bangs (thanks to a single contributor worried about his abs), mists feeling from the smoke of cigarrettes being lighted, but still amidst all this, the serene of the morning in a bed with covers from head to toe.
Its a torture to undergo such a episode on a daily basis though we endure it. With sleep in eyes, we try to get the day over. I will continue later, have to run to the office...warna "half day ki talwar to hamesha hai", though now it doesnt bother us much.
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